Where The Sidewalk Ends

Well hey... today sucked i wrote 4 pages of how i was feeling today (it makes me feel better to get every inch of emotion out) but im locking them up, i was gonna write it all in here, but i think i should explain my title, so i could look back on this journal and remember one day.




Theres this song my dad listens to about the war in Vietnam, its really old but he burns it so it really reminds me of him, its called "Peace Train" by Cat Stevens. Its my, how do u call it, "Trigger" it makes me cry like a baby, if i hear it or think about it it reminds me of my dad, he was playing it in the car this morning and i was sobbing, but he couldnt see me, i did it a total of 3 times and he didnt see, then in lunch i finally broke down, cuz i was repeating the lyrics. I'm such a pussy.




.......you see i feel it coming on again, my nose gets all itchy, but i controlled it, but i couldnt control it in luch, fuck me! i hate crying like a little bitch in school!




I love my papi, like so fucking much, but he wont learn, he'll never learn, hes afraid to lose us...but he already did, but he didnt lose our love, hes always got me, always.




And i cant help but listen to "Peace Train" and think about him





"Now I've been crying lately, thinking about the world as it is"
that line is perfect for me and papi




"Cause out on the edge of darkness, there rides a peace train"




"Now I've been happy lately, thinking about the good things to come"




♥ Papi





Cat Stevens
"Peace Train"




Now I've been happy lately, thinking about the good things to come
And I believe it could be, something good has begun




Oh I've been smiling lately, dreaming about the world as one
And I believe it could be, some day it's going to come




Cause out on the edge of darkness, there rides a peace train
Oh peace train take this country, come take me home again




Now I've been smiling lately, thinking about the good things to come
And I believe it could be, something good has begun




Oh peace train sounding louder
Glide on the peace train
Come on now peace train
Yes, peace train holy roller




Everyone jump upon the peace train
Come on now peace train




Get your bags together, go bring your good friends too
Cause it's getting nearer, it soon will be with you




Now come and join the living, it's not so far from you
And it's getting nearer, soon it will all be true




Now I've been crying lately, thinking about the world as it is
Why must we go on hating, why can't we live in bliss




Cause out on the edge of darkness, there rides a peace train
Oh peace train take this country, come take me home again